Enjoying being vegan

A search i have led most of my life as we all do for some better understanding of why we are here and what are we supposed to do with our lives has brought me this far. I don't think i have achieved anywhere near my final plateau. Even though i feel i have a greater understanding today than i did several years ago, i only feel close to God when i remind myself of the relationship i used to have. I used to talk to him every morning, all day. Like a friend. That's probably half my problem, seeing today the god within each of us and learning how to enjoy and be fulfilled by the god in all of us and not just in the spiritual place i hold in my heart. God is greater than i thought, and i find it harder to get closer without first wanting to understand my new pace in the scheme of things, in comparison to how i see things now.